I suppose it's time for a "Where Are We Now?" update on our adoption process. Not that there is all that much to say, but there is enough that merits some mention.
I found this article about the Brown University student who transferred to Liberty University and then wrote a book to tell about his experiences pretty interesting.
Have I ever mentioned we're a Cr0cs family? I mean, I know kids everywhere are wearing them, but how many adults do you know that wear them? How about women?
Sawyer is getting the pair pictured up top, because with the purchase of a pair of the s0lesUnited Cr0cs, the company will donate a pair of shoes to a person in need of shoes. It's a small thing, but every little bit counts, right? Plus, the shoes are made of 20% recycled material, so they are eco-friendly as well. Not to mention that as a mom, being able to spray off my kids feet and their shoes just before they walk in the door is quite a benefit! :)
Here are some Easter pics for you......
We attempted a family picture- even after being VERY windblown (and very freezing) during the Easter egg hunt. This was the best we could do after several tries.
Happy Tax Day!
If you missed the original angry taxpayer's tea party and you are looking for a way to celebrate tax day, how about a "Tax Day Tea Party"?
I'd LOVE to go throw a little proverbial tea in the water to show how less-than-pleased I am about the ridiculous fiscal decisions our government is making at all levels these days. How about you?
I have been meaning to post this for a LONG time. Back at Christmas, many of us were talking about doing whatever we could to reduce the focus of materialism at Christmas maybe making gifts, or spending TIME instead of money. Well, my sister is very good at this. It helps that she's also a very talented artist. With her permission, I wanted to share her gift to me this Christmas- clearly my favorite! It is a book that she illustrated and bound for me, so I can read it to my kids. Wish I knew how to make the pictures bigger, but hopefully you get the idea.
PS- Yes, I'm trying to convince her that she needs to be using this talent professionally. I'll have to share more of her work in the future....maybe you all can help me convince her to get to work! :)
So.....am I ok? Yes. Strictly speaking. I am. And no. Not so much. A string of kind of pithy, nonsense blog posts generally means only one thing: I'm sinking. And fast.
I keep waiting for life to slow down a bit, but it doesn't. Apparently, I just need to buy some running shoes and start trying to keep up.
Awhile back there was lots of talk and blog posts I read about "simplifying life" and getting rid of stuff that crowds out time for just being. I thought A LOT about that (hence the fact that those posts were probably 9 months ago now and I'm JUST saying my thoughts on them now- welcome to who I am), and I've come to the conclusion that for the moment, I'm not being called to "simplify my life". In fact, I think what really happened was my life was TOO simple. I was very good at simplifying. TOO good. I would say "NO" to a lot of opportunities to "do", because I thought "being" was preferable to "doing". And, to me, it IS preferable.
However, I have come to the conclusion that I am called at the moment to "complicate" my life for the sake of some things that are bigger than me.
And that's wonderful. I feel honored beyond words. But, it's hard. For me.
I'm good at "being". I like "being. This thing that I hear everyone saying all the time about needing to "do" stuff to feel needed or valued or like a person or whatever......um........I don't have that. I can't relate. And that's not me trying to be funny....I really can't relate.
So, this season of life is HARD for me. Really hard. For most other people, it would probably feel like a breeze. Let's face it, I work two days a week. Two. I have kids that are known by most people to be good kids who are easy to care for (except when they aren't). I have a helpful husband (except when he rips the pinkie toe bone off his foot bone and need surgery, which is another story). And, other than being a wife, a mom and a children's pastor....I do nothing else. But, those things alone are draining me right now. OK, I have a few other things going on- like needing to complete 75 hours of professional development before June 30th to keep my teaching certificate because I thought I had till NEXT June. Then, there's Scot's whole pinkie toe incident which has (no joke) rendered him incapable of doing quite a few things to help out (although he IS getting better). Oh, and there is that little fact that being a wife, mom, and children's pastor are gross over-simplifications. Come on....you know what I mean, right? Each of those is a full-time job.
So, allow me to put this little plug in here. Your children's pastor/director/minister needs help. I don't care who they are or how big your church is or how wonderful it all goes each Sunday therefore convincing you he/she needs no help. He/she DOES need your help. If you aren't currently serving anywhere in the church you call home, pick up the phone and call your children's pastor/director/minister......he/she needs help because he/she is trying to reach kids for Christ but can't possibly multiply his/herself 10 different ways to accomplish that goal.
*stepping off my soap box*
Anyway....all that to say, I'm trying to find ways for life to stop feeling so harried, so overwhelming, so stressful, and start enjoying these things I have been called to do. I'm not managing it all very well at all, and I've realized that if I don't start doing that, I won't be able to keep up much longer. I'm like a rather out-of-shape person who is realizing now that the treadmill is at 5 speed that it's going to get to 10 really quickly, and I'm going to go flying off if something doesn't change about the way I'm doing it all.
And I realize that the problem is me. Life is managing me instead of me managing life.
I want to be a better, more intentional wife. I want to be a better, more intentional mom. I want to be better and more intentional in ministry. However, I'm neglecting me. I thought that was a good thing for awhile. Now I'm realizing I'm not doing the very thing that allows me to have anything to give anyone. I need to be more intentional about the things that refuel me. Those things, I've realized, are the first things to go.
I know I've been called to do the things I'm doing, but in order to do them and do them well, and do them long-term, I've got to make some changes. So, I've been soul-searching a bit. Trying to figure out what to do and how to do it. And trying to keep up in the meanwhile. That leaves little time for the computer. I've been reading, but not posting. But, I'm here. And I'm (mostly) ok. Thanks for asking. :)
So there it is. 1:39 AM and I'm finishing a post it took me a week to write.
Next post: My to do list from now to July (alternately titled "Why I feel like I'm suffocating")
Post after that: Adoption update (because I have one) (that no one should get excited about)
PS- I need a vacation! :)