Life.
It gets in the way of blogging sometimes. :)
And life for the last......hmmmmm.....I don't know, couple of months has been kind of personally intense for me. VERY growing, but not, you know, comfortable and easy. I've been emotionally exhausted, confused, and just trying to find what is true, and right, and good in all of this. I have learned a tremendous amount about myself: who I am, why I'm that way, what I can do about it, what needs to be changed, and what is just how God made me to be. I've also learned about disappointment- in myself and in others. I don't know that I've figured out how to deal with that disappointment exactly.
But, as I've said in the past, music often speaks to me just where I am and speaks to me just when I need it most. These last few weeks, I've been listening to the song "Savior, Please" by Josh Wilson. I had the pleasure of meeting him last week at his concert and letting him know just how much his song speaks to me and reminds me of how the work Christ is doing in me is not over by far, and how while my salvation is secure, I still daily need a Savior who saves me from myself and my ways (which are OH so often not His ways).
If you don't know this song, go buy the CD or download this song. It will be worth it, I promise!!!
Savior, please take my hand
I work so hard, I live so fast
This life begins, and then it ends
And I do the best that I can, but I don't know how long I'll last
I try to be so tough
But I'm just not strong enough
I can't do this alone, God I need You to hold on to me
I try to be good enough
But I'm nothing without Your love
Savior, please keep saving me
Savior, please help me stand
I fall so hard, I fade so fast
Will You begin right where I end
And be the God of all I am because You're all that I have
I try to be so tough
But I'm just not strong enough
I can't do this alone, God I need You to hold on to me
I try to be good enough
But I'm nothing without Your love
Savior, please keep saving me
Hallelujah
Everything You are to me
Is everything I'll ever need
And I am learning to believe
That I don't have to prove a thing
'Cause You're the one who's saving me
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PS- adoption update coming. Yes, I have something to say. No, we don't have a referral! :)
